13 "Secrets"

Well, considering I haven't had many readers lately, I figure this is as good a time as any to divulge my "secrets" to you. 

1. I've been known to dodge a phone call if the song on the radio is a good one.

2. High school wouldn't have sucked so much if it had any resemblance to what the portray in movies.

3. When I was a flattycakes, I never used to understand why well endowed women hated their boobs so much. Now I know.

4. Since I had Alexa, I cry at everything. I am not joking. Yesterday, I cried during Cars. It was just so nice when Lightening McQueen helped everybody in Radiator Springs... *sniff*
5. I still can't swim because of a traumatic experience I had when I was seven.
6. Unless I'm on a treadmill or something, I cannot work out if someone is watching me. It makes me feel five times heavier and ten times dumber.
7. I'm pretty sure that I could watch "10 Things I Hate About You" every day for the rest of my life and be completely okay with it.
8. I cannot stand the song "Silent Night." After singing it 10 times a night for three nights in a row during a high school Christmas program, I can go the rest of my life without hearing it ever again.
9. I want to go to school and expand my intelligence. But, once I get there, I immediately stop caring.
10. I love shopping for tops. I hate shopping for pants.
11. It's no secret, but I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints [Mormon] and I am extremely proud of it.

12. I'll never admit this to him, but my dad was right. I do regret quitting piano lessons.

13. I love my freckles. I think people are crazy when I hear them talking about covering theirs up. They're so cute!

There you have it. 13 things you now know about me that you didn't really care about in the first place. To those of you who still actually frequent my blog, don't forget to say hello so I know you're there!

Happy Sunday!

Thursday 13

This morning I hopped over to aunieSAUCE

to get the topic for this week's Thursday 13.

Alas!

She couldn't think of anything!

Soooooo...

I decided to revisit an older link up between Aunie and Jenna over at The Life of the Wife

and post the Last 13 Things I [whatever].

Yay!

THE LAST THING I...

ATE:

Some yummy MultiGrain Cheerios. :) Seriously the BEST kind of Cheerios available.

BOUGHT:

A maternity t-shirt from Target in Mankato. Why aren't there maternity places in Marshall!?

LAUGHED AT:

This:

MADE:

Those adorable wall letters for my baby's nursery. :)

CRIED ABOUT:

Who knows? I cry about so many stupid things now that I'm pregnant. Half the time I don't even know why I'm crying in the first place. ...My poor husband.

READ:

I read about the actual birthing process. Now I'm looking forward to it even less...

ENVIED:

People who's body looks like this:

DEFINITELY my post-baby goal.

THOUGHT:

Am I even going to have time to work out after this kid gets here? What in the heck am I getting myself into?

CRAVED:

A fruit smoothie. My husband recently bought some Dole frozen fruit from Sam's Club and with a bit of sugar, lemon juice, and strawberry yogurt, I swear it tastes just like Jamba Juice's "Strawberry Surf Rider". [Which just so happens to be my favorite.]

WISHED:

That the tickets to The Hunger Games haven't been sold out yet. Nick called me up about an hour ago and asked if I wanted to go. Um. YES.

LISTENED TO:

I've recently been obsessed with this song. I LOVE it when rock groups incorporate piano into their music. *siiiigh*
[Although the video is a bit cheesy...]

WONDERED:

How long does it take other people to come up with 13 things to write about? I think it takes me way too long sometimes...

FORGOT TO DO:

Definitely forgot where my keys were supposed to go the other day. Where did I put them?

The fridge.

Seriously.

Thursday 13

This week the Thursday Thirteen has toned it down a bit for a more 

thought-provoking list.

Normally I'm a pretty upbeat person, but we all have our secret desires.

We all wish for something more.

And, if you haven't checked out Annelise over at aunieSAUCE, you really ought to. She's one fab writer and cute to boot!

So, without further adieu, here's the list.

13 Things I wish/pray for on a daily basis:


1. For my child to be born healthy. This really goes without saying. I mean, who DOESN'T want the best for their child?


2. To have a better immune system. I realize that pregnancy has kind of stifled my sickness fighters, but come ON. I'm sick pretty much every other week! Can't it be just a little harder for me to catch things?

3. To find a job after we move. I know that it will be tough because of my bump, but we will need the extra income for a few months. I'd even settle for McDonald's. Again.

4. To have energy. So far, my list is pretty selfish. (Apart from number 1...) But this is a biggie for me. I sleep a LOT and I'm still dragging all day. I exercise. I eat right (kind of) and I still can hardly muster up the energy to shower or do the dishes.

5. For my little brother to wise up. He's only 13, but he's so naive. And, not the innocent kind. The "what-the-heck-were-you-thinking" kind. He's pretty sheltered, and I'm afraid that one of these days he's going to get the living snot beat out of him for saying something cocky to someone who's a lot bigger than he is.

6. To fully and completely overcome my depression. I used to hate myself. I used to hurt myself. I still have the scars as a reminder. I'm actually proud of those scars. I never want to get rid of them. They remind me of the darkest point in my life - a point that I never thought I would escape from. I'm proud of those scars because I can look at them now. Because I am alive. I still have a long way to go, but I appreciate how far I've come.


7. To find new ways of earning my husband's love. That man is absolutely, hands down, the most incredible man I've ever met. He is my soul mate and my friend. Some days I look at him and wonder what on God's green earth is wrong with him. How in the world did he end up with me? Sometimes I feel so undeserving of his love. But I know that he sees me. Truly sees me. I know that if I weren't what he needed, he wouldn't be with me - he wouldn't have married me. For that, I am thankful. I want to work every day to show him how much I appreciate him.

8. To stop wrongfully judging others. I know that I'm not alone when I say that I do this. Everyone does it. I find myself out in public thinking, "Holy cow. Look at that NOSE!" or... "It's not even windy. Why does their hair look like that?" Stupid, shallow things. I know I can be better than that. Those people don't deserve it. If I don't want to be judged, who am I to judge others?

9. To forgive my ex-husband. This will be the hardest thing on my list. How can I possibly forgive someone who completely destroyed me? I was numb, cynical and angry for an entire year after he left, while I covered it up with a smile. It was exhausting. Very few people knew the struggles I was facing inside. But, I'm happy now. And I know that if it weren't for him being a spineless (bleep), I would have never had the chance to fall for Nick. I wouldn't have been the kind of person that Nick needed. So, for that, I am grateful. I am, honestly, in my ex's debt.

10. To be a good mother. This is what keeps me up at night. This is what I worry about constantly. What am I doing? Am I even ready for this? Someone is going to be completely and totally dependent on me. I am literally holding her life in my hands. That scares me to death.

11. To prioritize my time. Granted, there are plenty of things I should be doing right now. Blogging is not one of them. I need to stop rationalizing with myself over why I do dumb things. I am my own worst critic. I am the harshest person that I have to be accountable to. Am I afraid of myself?

12. To stop being content. I've learned that when I'm content with where I am - or who I am - I stop trying to be better. I stop learning. I stop progressing. It's a vicious cycle. I'm happy - I'm lazy - I'm depressed - I try harder. Around and around it goes...

13. To just do the dang dishes! It's the chore that I despise. It's icky and smelly and it hurts my wimpy, pregnant back. Suck it up, Michelle. They aren't going to clean themselves.

Thursday 13

The Top 13 Things I Would Want on a Desert Island are:

1. Nick. Of course  I would want him there with me. He's amazing! He's brave, strong and gets this super cute look on his face when he's concentrating. He can hunt, build stuff, and, above all, keep the sniveling pregnant lady company.

2. Stuff to distill water. Chances are, the water around the island will be salty, and therefore undrinkable. 

3. Stuff to hunt WITH. Thanks, Nick. (He found out that this was the Thursday 13, and has started spouting off ideas for me. hehe.) Preferably something more than a sharpened stick. Like an AR-15. Or at least a machete. And a fishing pole.

4. Books. I'm sure there will be tons of things to occupy my time on this island (what with our survival at stake) but I may get bored. So, books a plenty!

5. Stuff to occupy NICK with. Currently he is throwing little mints at me for his own entertainment. So, to avoid this same situation with coconuts, we should give him something to play with, too. Like... a monkey. Or my iPhone so he can play Angry Birds or Temple Run. Aaaaaallll day.

6. Shampoo. I absolutely hate having greasy, dirty hair. And, while it may not be a necessity, this is MY list. I must be clean. It helps to improve my mood.

7. Sunscreen. While Nick may have been blessed with beautiful Native American skin, I am still a pasty, white girl and burn easily. Curse you, fair complexion! 

8. Music. I love my music, and I could very literally go insane without it. So, while I'm out gathering berries or firewood, I'd be jamming out on my iPod. Hecks yes.

9. Rope. Lots and lots of rope. Then we can build shelters, traps, and tie each other up when we get annoyed. Erm.. I mean, of course not.

10. Medicine. There will come a time that one of us (ie: me) will become sick. Like, deathly sick. Like, bitten by a rabid monkey sick. Gotta have supplies for that, man. You just can't be too careful.

11. Flint and Steel. Like most deserts, it will probably get cold at night, and we'll need some way to cook all the awesome food that Nick hunted. Fire is a necessity.

12. A Camera. Come on, a desert island? There's probably some seriously gorgeous stuff out there. And, even though it's a death trap and we'll probably never get off, it'd be cool to have some pictures to capture the happier times.

13. Toilet Paper. I know, there won't be any toilets per se, but I am NOT using a leaf. Nooooo thank you.

Thursday 13

This week's Thursday 13 is again brought to you by aunieSAUCE

and the topic isssss.....

My favorite ways to spend my free time:

1. Listening to music. I love it, and I can't imagine my world without music. I can't even drive five minutes without something playing on the radio.

2. Reading. Right now I'm finally getting around to reading The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. It took a lot of willpower for me to drag myself away from that book to blog about reading the book.

3. Napping. I know, lame. But, being pregnant makes me tired. Sue me.

4. Experimenting with my hair. I am also taking a page out of Bye Bye Beehive's book and doing away with heat styling. So, needless to say, I actually have to do something with it so I don't look like a poodle every day.

5. Blogging. I have recently gotten into the swing of blogging and have become obsessed with making things pretty and enjoyable for my few readers. My husband makes fun of me, but, whatever. 

6. Exercising. I know. Exercising AND napping on the list? Come on. Every day is an adventure and I can't be doing the same thing all the time. I get bored. Plus, like I said, being pregnant makes me tired. But I really do enjoy a good workout. 

7. Kissing my husband. Don't worry, no TMI here. But who doesn't enjoy smooching their significant other?  I mean, really. Just LOOK at him.

8. Shooting guns. I had never shot a gun before I started dating Nick. His father thinks it is SO COOL that I seriously enjoy shooting. [Not to mention, I'm awesome at it.] 

9. Eating. This should be a given. Helloooooo, pregnant? 

10. Decorating. I have thought countless times how much fun it would be to become an interior designer. When Nick first moved into his apartment (before we were married) he let me decorate it. I went NUTS. It was so much fun.

11. Walking outside. Not so much in the winter - hello? it's cold - but I LIVE for summertime walks. Sometimes I include my iPod, but usually I just let nature surround me.

12. Playing guitar. I'm not very good, but I've written some songs, and I enjoy playing them. Over and over and over and over and over and...

13. Watching "Supernatural." Oh yes. My one and only vice. I have watched this show religiously since season 1, and I can't get enough. 

Thursday 13

So, I've decided to link up with aunieSAUCE and participate in the

Thursday 13 every week.

This week it's

The Last Thing I...

1. Ate: A mini Gummi Bear from my secret stash.

2. Listened to: "Thunder" by Boys Like Girls

3. Watched: "Sympathy for the Devil" on Supernatural season 5

4. Purchased: Water and a "How-To" book on crochet.

5. Wore: I'm pretty comfy today in my sweats and a t-shirt my parents got me from Mexico.

6. Thought: "I wonder if I ever creep into his head at random times, too. Probably not, though. It's probably just pregnancy hormones, anyway."

7. Drank: Some yummy milk. I have to drink, like, a gallon a week or something ridiculous like that. WIC has me buying 4-5 gallons a MONTH.

8. Wanted to buy: Some super cute leggings and top from Motherhood Maternity.

9. Prayed for: My baby. I want so badly for her to be healthy and strong when she is born.

10. Painted on my nails: I don't paint my fingernails. They're too stubby for that. But I just redid my toenails a lovely shade of orange-y pink.

11. Craved: Doughnuts. I want them so bad I would probably punch someone if I saw them eating one. Does that make me a bad person?

12. Wished for: Summertime. I miss it SO MUCH. If there's one thing I cannot stand, it's being cold.

...and coats. I don't like wearing them.

13. Laughed at: This picture. Right here.

Because it's true.